Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery from jhnner's blog

I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining examples of the teachings of a course in miracles acim, and fo initially in an extended while, I do not feel alone.

Element of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I could be doing so for the wrong reason; as an easy way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to generally share wasn't yet clear during those times; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have let you see inside. Don't are interested troubling your brain, won't you allow it be?” This confused me as I could not consider whatever I'd said that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I'd in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents'peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.

You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.